Post by jason allen wilson on Dec 26, 2011 16:08:39 GMT -5
theres a thunder in our hearts baby
so much hate for the ones we love
TAG: HAZEL/LEAF OUTFIT: HERE only the shirt's buttoned ONE LAST THING: hahaha don't, i love torturing jason. it's the best part of having a character like him (x but hmm shall we call that a conclusion?
what was this feeling? jason had honestly never felt anything similar. too much emotion and overthinking and contemplation tended to get in the way of figuring out what naturally was running through his mind and he had never not focused on something like this before. so this feeling coursing through his veins, this emotion taking hold of his senses was something he was completely alien to. it almost made him feel like he was sensitive to everything. he could feel each shift in body position; every centimeter that leaf's hand traveled was noted and each brought a new feeling, a shift in how his body was reacting. the feeling of leaf's tongue in his mouth, exploring new territory, dominating his own, was unlike anything he'd ever experienced though it wasn't like the concept of the thing was new. it just felt different when he wasn't so worried about a relationship or feelings or what if they hate me because i'm bad at this because with leaf he didn't care. he just wanted to study the natural progression of what was happening and now that he had, he couldn't put a name to the fire burning in his gut.
then he realized exactly where leaf's hand was going and it was a miracle he didn't choke and pull away stuttering then and there. he could feel flashbacks from years ago mixed in with the reality of what was currently happening, and it confused him. it was the same in some ways - in the jump in his core, the exhilaration in his blood, the pounding of his heart. that feeling he remembered because it was a feeling that kept him up late at night and tortured him in his sleep for months. he couldn't forget it if he wanted to. the newness of it though was that it was happening with his permission; it was something he was allowing and encouraging, something he knew he'd have to go through this time around, and it didn't scare him nearly as much as it did before, even if it did make him want to jump out of his skin anyway. there was a new rightness to it because leaf wasn't his teacher, this wasn't something happening randomly, and it's not like he was nearly as....bad about it as his teacher had been. it was an innocent touch really if the fact that it was happening at all was overlooked, and it was then that jason realized exactly what that feeling that had been plaguing him was called. it was called lust.
and suddenly, just like that, leaf pulled away, leaving jason to settle back down on the couch with a red tint on his cheeks, slightly dazed from what had just happened. he heard a chuckle and, "and we'll save the rest for lesson two." he swallowed as he felt his throat go dry once more. lesson two? of course he knew there was more to it than just...well kissing but honestly the idea of what had just happened happening again hadn't ever even occurred to him. he figured leaf would just take this one chance, do him a favor, and then tell him he was on his own from there and he hoped he summed some things up. but anything that even sounded like another opportunity for...this wasn't exactly what he was expecting. he turned his attention to the tv. the special was coming to a close; he had come in in the middle of it anyway. "right," he found himself managing to say as the camera on the tv panned over modern day chernobyl, "lesson two." then he glanced over at leaf again quickly before looking back at the screen.
tell me that we both matter dont we
